I’ve been thinking about suicide more and more these last few days.
Life seems so dark. I’ve gone to that bridge. Right now it seems like there is no point in living. All I see and feel is the pain. I’m completely and totally exhausted. I’ve been trying for two days to write this entry. And it’s a scrambled mess.
Words just aren’t coming to me. Which is frustrating because I’ve always been a verbal person. It makes it hard to even try to figure out why I feel the way I do. I just know that death seems to be a better alternative than life.
I remember all the technical details about suicide and depression from my graduate psychopathology class. But all the academic knowledge in the world doesn’t help right now. All I know is that I’m hurting. Both physically and emotionally. And I just wish that the pain would finally end.