I have them.

I’m having extremely severe almost unrelenting body memories right now.  I’m so anxious, I can feel the tension in my back and shoulders and neck.  I’m trying to use all my coping skills.  I REALLY want to cut.  I’m doing everything I can to avoid it.  This is exhausting.  I don’t have anything useful to write.  I just needed to get this out there before I scream and/or do something I’ll regret in the morning.

7 thoughts on “Issues

  1. It feels sometimes like all I’m doing is hanging on. I can see that in your entry and the comment left on my site. I’m afraid I don’t know what else to say other than that.


  2. I am glad to see that you got it out onto your blog. I hope that helps even a teensy bit. I’m holding on on your behalf.

  3. miquiecrew says:

    body memories are hard. i agree, and i am glad you are able to write it out a bit. try not to self-harm, and know that i am thinking of you right now …

  4. kprsjohn says:

    getting it out like that is good, at least it relieves some of the stress and pressure, you s/b proud! sending safe hugs


  5. Yes, the body has memories – vivid memories. And, there will always be triggering events and/or states we are in that are triggers But all things do change. All conditions our conditions are in shift. Doors close and windows open and in between the best we can ever do is to have faith that the next change will be for the better.


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