It seems like I’ve had chronic pain since my teens. I’ve gotten diagnoses from everything from TMJ to tendonitis. My joints hurt. But if I tell a doctor this, they point out I’m fat. I get so demoralized that I never seem to point out that some of the worst pain is in my shoulders, elbows and hands and I do not (to my knowledge) walk on my hands.
I was lying in bed the other day and Gidgette came and started climbing on me. It was like knives in my sides. This wasn’t her claws, simply her body weight (all 11 pounds of her).
I had a friend try to give me a massage one day and the pain of the pressure of his hands was too much to bear.
I don’t know who to bring this up with. I need to see my orthopod because the tendonitis in my wrist is flaring up again. I suppose I could tell my shrink. Forgot the GP, the language barrier is too great and he just did a whole round of blood work to proclaim me healthy.
20 years of this, I don’t know how much more I can take. I have good insurance in Korea, so I should probably try to figure it out. But just the thought of it leaves me more depressed.