I’ve decided that I have to reprioritize my life. I have a finite amount of energy. I have (what feels like) an ever growing list of responsibilities. The more energy I throw at those “but I have to” the less energy I have to do thing I want to do and to do things that are good for me.
Most of the responsibilities are work related. I’m giving work 20 percent of my energy. If I don’t have perfect lesson, it’s OK. If I rely a little too much on the same activities, it’s OK. A lot of them involve throwing a beach ball around to practice questions and answers. What kid doesn’t want to throw a ball around in the classroom. If all 100 student phone calls don’t get done by Friday, well, too bad. I don’t think the school is in a position to fire me as I’m the ONLY foreign teacher and it can take months to recruit and a get a new one over here.
My constant worrying goes in the 10 percent too. If I worry myself sick, that’s less energy for my job.
The other 80 percent is all up for negotiation. If I want to work on my website, I’ll do it. If I want to do art. I’ll do it. And if I just want to sleep, I’ll do it. If I think it’s better to sleep late than go to PT, I’ll let myself sleep.
I have to stat taking care of myself. Nobody else is going to do it.