I’ve decided that I have to reprioritize my life.  I have a finite amount of energy.  I have (what feels like) an ever growing list of responsibilities.  The more energy I throw at those “but I have to” the less energy I have to do thing I want to do and to do things that are good for me.

Most of the responsibilities are work related.  I’m giving work 20 percent of my energy.  If I don’t have perfect lesson, it’s OK.  If I rely a little too much on the same activities, it’s OK.  A lot of them involve throwing a beach ball around to practice questions and answers.  What kid doesn’t want to throw a ball around in the classroom.  If all 100 student phone calls don’t get done by Friday, well, too bad.  I don’t think the school is in a position to fire me as I’m the ONLY foreign teacher and it can take months to recruit and a get a new one over here.

My constant worrying goes in the 10 percent too.  If I worry myself sick, that’s less energy for my job.

The other 80 percent is all up for negotiation.  If I want to work on my website, I’ll do it.  If I want to do art.  I’ll do it.  And if I just want to sleep, I’ll do it.  If I think it’s better to sleep late than go to PT, I’ll let myself sleep.

I have to stat taking care of myself.  Nobody else is going to do it.


2 thoughts on “20/80

  1. Hi Kathryn, I subscribed to you blog a few months ago and this would be my first comment on your blog. I don’t know what it’s like to live with fribro, but I do know what it’s like to be in pain…and I subscribed because sometimes I think pain needs a witness, and by “witness” I mean a companion whose presence serves as a reminder that you’re not alone in your pain. Having said that, it’s great to hear you’re reprioritizing your life, identifying what will work best for you. *HUGS* Clarisse :)

  2. Thanks Clarisse. I sucks we’re in pain. But nobody ever promised me the perfect life. I live with what I get. I’m trying to be more positive.

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