Today’s discussion centered around feelings. The one observation I had was I know how to label the basic emotions; happy, sad, angry. But I can’t label things that are more complex. I like labels. I like to know what things are. Sometimes the hardest question to answer is “What are you feeling?”. Sometimes I throw around names such as jealously or anxiety. I’m not always sure that that’s what I’m feeling.
We also talked a bit about automatic thoughts. Things that I jump to so fast that I don’t even think about it. Two of those thoughts are guilt and responsibility. I jump and don’t even know it. I’m trying to challenge those thoughts after jumping there. I’m reminded of a passage from “The Magic Tollbooth” where the dog flies out of the car and onto an island by jumping to conclusions. That’s me. I jump to conclusions about the abuse and who’s responsible. No more. I’ll jump but not land. I won’t be perfect, but trying is the key.